Dear diary
I'm so sad...! The only person I really cared about has left me!
He helped me so much... He gave me a place to stay, clothes , food and money and the most important of all: he was affectionate and treated me like a real lady!
Oh! How I wish it hadn't finished! I knew it couldn´t last! He was rich and I was just a poor country girl. But that doesn´t make it hurt less. It was good while it lasted but he's just got tired of me! I knew it would happen but it is so painful!!
I did my best to take it well and I contained all my tears. I had to look strong in front of him and be gallant. He gave me some money I didn't want to accept after all he had done, but I really needed it. I'm going to use it to spend two months at the seaside.
I know I may need this money later, but I feel so depressed I have no energy to go back to Brumley or to apply for a job now. I am just not in the right mood. I need to clear my mind, to be alone, to go over all my memories with him, just to make it last longer.
Oh, Gerald! I will always remember you as the man who helped me in my rough days!
Life is hard. Nothing good seems to last. Nothing used to last for Eva, and nothing seems to last for Daisy either...Is there no hope at all for people like me?!
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