March 8th, 1911

Dear diary,

I´ve decided to change my name, because of my bad luck! I am tired of being Eva Smith. Everything I do fails or is ruined.  I want to be somebody else, somebody whose plans suceed, somebody whose dreams come true.
Now I´m totally ruined!  I don't have any money left.  I have nobody to go to in Brumley. The palace bar is my last resource. I won´t get the money that I need, otherwise. 
I'm really scared about the idea of going there. I think it is a very dark place with vile men trying to get a girl´s attention. Well, I think I'm going there only one night to try my luck as a woman of the town. Oh God, I´ve never imagined I would end up as a prostitute! Please, God, forgive me! If I had any other option, I wouldn´t do this! 

Daisy Renton (my new name)

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