An utter failure. Once more. I cannot believe it! Is anything ever going to turn out right?
I was so ashamed to confess how I got pregnant....(It is so shameful...!) And the women there looked so upper class, so righteous, so prejudiced...I told them my name was Mrs Birling. I didn´t want them to judge me because I am unmarried. A terrible blunder! One of the women in the committee was actually Mrs Birling!! Was she Eric´s mother and Mr Birling´s wife or was it just a coincidence? I don´t know and I don´t care. But the fact that I had used her name turned her against me! And she turned all the other women there against me too!
They didn´t believe anything I said. They called me a liar. They insulted me saying that I was "giving myself ridiculous airs" by refusing to accept STOLEN money from the father of my baby! They were so cold, so unsympathetic, so far away from the reality of poverty and suffering, so inadequate for a committee of a charitable organisation!! I felt so insulted, so mocked, so wounded...And of course, they refused to help me.
I don´t know what I will do. I cannot feel more depressed...
Poor baby, what an awful world awaits you!
Daisy
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